Boyfriend is coming to Singapore tonight!
My parents are gonna pick him up with me.
Plane touching down at 11.20pm.
He's staying at my place this trip!
Being able to spend new years eve with him would be awesome :)

I don't even know what's going on anymore.
Nothing can help,

just let what has to happen happen.

One after another.

How much can one take?

We'll see

When you need someone to listen to all your crap slash complains slash rantings, that silly one will be right there no matter what time it is. The warm comfort that i cannot seem to seek from anywhere else.
Love you buddyyyy :)

things i do to take my mind off things.
not the best option but it works.

Friday, come quick.

On the plane,
when the ice on the window started to melt,
I know I'm home!
Lol.

My parents came to pick me up from the airport.
Really happy to see them.
Been a year man.
Not easy.
Went straight for Teo Chew porridge at like 5.30 in the morning!
Had roti prata and durian today already.
My top cravings.
More to come guys.
Don't worry, I'm going back to night safari to work this summer holiday.
So my weight is taken care of.
HAHA.

Met up with ex colleagues for dinner!
Had jap buffet.
I was stuffed.
Went for a drink at a bar and now I'm home~
That's about it!

I hope you are happy now :)

Last night at my uni dorm.

Had my share of fun living at a school dorm.

No more theme parties :(

Gonna miss everyone!

Bye room! :)

Done with exams.

That is when the bad news comes in.
Coz no one dared to utter a word when you were having your exams.

Grandpa left.
He wasn't too well.
Maybe it's better this way.

Rest in peace grandpa..
I love you.

Can't believe I even complained about exams in year 12.
Uni is like 10x the craziness.

I swear I'm gonna have hell loads of fun tomorrow!!
When I say "fun", it just means ANYTHING EXCEPT STUDYING.

PS: I come here to blog whenever I'm bored of studying.

How can ANS 101 not be an open book exam!!
It's impossible to memorise everything.
Literally.
So many dates and day/month/year length to remember for so many different kinds of activities for so many different animals.
So many different breeds of animals that exist in this whole entire world.

I will be a walking animal encyclopedia if I can pass this exam.

This is what it takes to be a vet :(
And I'm only in year 0.
5 more years to go....

Some parents may not make as much money as other parents do.
But their love for their kids is not any lesser.
They will work so hard for that minimum wage just to support the family and the kids' education.
Doing and spending all that they can afford to celebrate their children's birthday just to see the smile on their faces.

When you were young, your parents were the ones who spoon fed you, stayed up all night when you had a fever, repeated the same alphabet again and again every single day just so that you could learn.
Their memory may not be as good now so it might be your turn to repeat stuff to them.
Don't ever feel impatient or annoyed with them.
While you are busy growing up, don't forget that they are getting old at the same time too.
Don't let yourself have the chance to regret when they leave you one day.
They eventually will..

So no one should lack the virtue of filial piety.

After a year, I'm finally going home to see my parents.
Can't wait :)

One last exam on Thurday!!!!!!!!

It's on animal production systems.

You literally have the knowledge to run a farm of any type after this unit.

So you can imagine the crazy content that I have to memorise.

Not just that.

Have to identify all the beef cattle, dairy cattle, sheep, goats, camalids, horses, chickens and pigs BREEDs.

Some of them really look EXACTLY the same............

I will be like "oh this is a white suffolk!"

Then the answer would be "its a white dorper"

Or "oh this is a poll dorset!"

then it will go "this is a white suffolk!"

google the pictures of these sheep and you will know what I mean.

I'm so loving animals....

The vicious cycle between us that I dread.

Let it be broken this time.

I mean, for real

Little things that can make you super duper happy :)

Lesson Learnt

Finished Cell biology exams today so I deleted all my notes.

I didn't realise that my 20,000 words animal ethics notes for tomorrow's open book exam was within those files so it was deleted too.

OMG.

I went crazy.

And guess what. I even emptied my trash bin.

So, my friends were helping me to look for softwares for recovering deleted files.

Tried 2 and none of them worked! (shoot myself)

I was like.. kill me now.

There is no way I can write 20,000 words in a night and bring it into an exam which is freaking TOMORROW.

I'm screwed.

Then suddenly..i remembered something.

I DID SEND MY NOTES TO MY PARENTS!!

You must be wondering why I would send them my animal ethics notes.

That's coz I want to show them what I have been doing for the past few days when they asked why I haven't been online to skype them.

Really thankful that they helped me even though it took me quite some time to teach them how to send a file through skype. Haha.

Anyway, the ending is I GOT THE FILE BACK.
So it's all good.

Lesson learnt: If something is stopping you from backing up your files (eg your laziness, no hard drive etc), just send your work to random people and hope that they will be too lazy to delete the file which will then be hiding somewhere in their computer when you desperately need it back. lol.

Sometimes it's so cool that when you talk to a friend that you haven't been talking to for ages, you realise that the friendship between you two hasn't change a tad bit.
The way that person talk, react to the things that you say etc.
No stranger feeling at all.
Just that instant clickkk.

Fun old memories :)

Gosh. I'm getting old..

:D

Our to do list in Singapore that we came out with!

♥ BIG HUG once he gets off the plane
♥ Give him his teddy bear chocolate from perth royal show
    (been with me for 2 months, expires on 05/2013 so don't worry)
♥ Eat satay and drink coconut juice
    (his request coz that's his impression of Singapore)
♥ Vivo city candy empire
    (he's a big fan of chocs & lollies, so have to bring him there)
♥ Watch a movie and eat popcorn
    (must be salty popcorn)
♥ Orchard road shopping
    (don't need explanation)
♥ Universal studio
   (a "couple-must-go" place)
♥ Fullhouse lifestyle store and cafe
   (just coz I see so many people blogging about this place)
♥ Meet up with my parents
   (a casual one guys, not like the getting married type. lol.)

That should fully pack our 3.5 days in Singapore together!

Waited for tooooooo long. We deserve this :)

First paper tomorrow.
Yeah..on a Saturday.

Murdoch just loves us too much! :)

Long Distance Relationship

I know many couples who break up coz being away from each other is really not easy.
But being in a LDR myself,
I realised that long distance relationship isn't that bad after all.

The only bad thing about it is that there is no physical interaction.
And that's about it.
We can literally do everything else(through skype).

1. Have meals together
-  We would wake up earlier on the weekends to have breakfast together.

2. Study together
-   during exam period, we would just leave skype on for the whole day. Trust me, it actually makes you feel less bored when you have that person right on skype

3. Watch movies together
-  As I said before, just share screen!

And, we can concentrate in what we want to achieve first without the distraction of having a boyfriend or girlfriend especially when you are still studying.
Plus point there.

And and and, if your relationship works out, it just goes to show how strong it is!

It's not that hard.

At least I always have something to look forward to all the time.

And that keeps me going! :D

3 weeks!

D:    D:    D:

9gag:
"When I'm studying,
even staring at the wall becomes interesting."

Do you have exams too?
If you don't, let me tell you this....
I'M FREAKING JEALOUS OF YOU.
If you do, well....
then too bad for you too.
Hahaha.

ps: the next few posts will probably be me complaining about exams

You were the one who let it go,

so don't come back for it.

You were the one who made the choice,

so don't come crying to me.

Telling me how much you are regretting now,

will not change anything.

Not a single thing.

You should have thought of this that night before you slammed the door behind you.

Don't ever, ever come back again.

A side of him that belongs to me exclusively.

Heeeeee :D

MAOOO

Bronx: Why are people not feeding me as much all of a sudden?
Meow~

What's in the box?

✧ HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEL!!!! ✧

Birthday celebration over skype :)

Although we cannot celebrate your birthday together,
hope every little thing in the box will make up for my absence.
Love you!

Betrayer

A past that you don't want to remember.
Even if it comes back to you one day,
let it know that you have moved on.
That's the best way to show that you are better off without it.

Things that I will never ever do:

1. Pick up smoking
- Just can't take the smell :(

2. Get a Tattoo
- Too painful

3. Piercings other than the basic 2

- Painful too

4. Drugs
- well I was taught in school not to do drugs, there must be a reason why
(not that i will try but not going to deny that I'm actually a little bit curious of how it feels like)

No offense to you guys out there who have done any of these.
That's just meeeeee

my parents will be so happy to see this post. lol.

“想不开就别想，得不到就不要”

exams exams exams

i wonder if there is anyone that actually likes studying?

I don't.

I like casual learning.

Not under the pressure of exams :(

get through this and all will be fine~

熟悉的陌生人

明明很相爱的两个人，
为什么可以因为另一个人的出现，
而放弃两人之间所拥有的一切呢？

说过的承诺，失去了它原本的意义。
谎言，代替了它。

回忆，也不再美了。

Counting down to the end of exams and...BACK TO SINGAPORE!

So many things that I want to do.

1. Squeeze my cat once I reach home (Don't care if he is gonna struggle or what, not gonna let him go for at least like 2 hours).

2. Spend heaps of time with my family!

3. Meet all my friends whom I promised to catch up with :D

4. Visit night safari :)

5. Eat those Singaporean food that I have been craving since day one when I left (Trust me, I've got a list).

6. SHOPPING

7. Meet ❤

8. Just by being home~

This list got me excited alreadyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

I have been really worried that the cut might leave an ugly scar.
But guess what!
I realised something.
If I put my thumb and my index finger next to each other, it actually forms a perfect little heart shape!
I'm not even joking.
About 0.5cm?
yeah so I'm really lucky to have such a tiny scar and at the same time, a cute one!
Wee~
Not too bad after all :D

Him.

Going all out just to make our relationship work and never once say that he wants to give up.
Flying to Singapore 3 times this coming summer just to visit and then fly back to perth with me.
Saying that he will make it up to me for all the time that he is not by my side.
Wanting to meet my parents so much to prove himself to them that he is trustworthy.
Making plans of what we are gonna do when we get to meet after 3 long months.

And..
Being my live alarm clock from today onwards ^.^

Love :)

So..my unit coordinator has been calling me up for the pass few weeks and also visited me in class to ask me about my hand injury.
Today, he called again during my lecture and I whispered into the phone saying that I can't talk now.
I was like, he saw my hand on Friday and knows that it's all okay now, why keep calling?!?!
And it is ALWAYS during lecture time.
Then,
I called him back after class.
He said.......................

"Hey shu, you won the lucky draw prize of $250 worth of school bookshop voucher for attending all the workshops (which almost everyone does), come collect it at my office anytime."

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO YEAHHHHHHHHHH :D
yes, i didn't expect that too.
I thought it was gonna be about my hand or the lab report or anything else other than a prize.
Oh wells.
Supply of books, no, i mean chocolates for my whole time in uni!

Or maybe...
they purposely gave the prize to me as a consolation for my injury that I got during this unit's lab class...
I think so.
Hmm..It's all worth it now..
LOL

Suddenly Gangnam style comes on on a party bus..

Holy **********************

hahaha

Don't ever lie to someone coz those who believed your lies will be those who trusted you

I shall be a cat this year!

Meow~

I was a little moody today.
So i asked him to sing a song to me while we were skyping.
And he did.
So cute :)

Thanks for being there for me babe..

As the day gets closer,
the more scared I'm.
I don't want to see the people whom I love most dearly being crushed after knowing what happened.
Seeing them still smiling everyday makes me really upset.
Coz they have no idea what is coming.
But I know.
There is nothing I can do.
I thought everything was okay, or even perfect at first.
Other people thought so too.
But apparently not.

Her fear. I can feel it.
It's scary. Really scary.

This too shall pass.
As soon as possible.
Please :(

Oh yeah! we realised that we can actually watch a movie together even if we are miles away from each other.

By sharing screen on skype!
Smart hey?

Hehe :P

He told the whole world (aka via facebook status) that I'm his girlfriend today!
Had lots of concern at first about publicising it but I'm happy now :)

Love <3

Finally got my stitches off!
6 stitches.
6 mini heart attacks.
5th was the worst.
The woooooooo pain.
Omg.
Haha.
One of the stitch snapped and some part of it was left inside.
Can't take it out.
The nurse gave me lollies after coz she said I was brave.
Oh well.
I will forgive her for breaking the stitch then.

lol.

Meet Charlie (again) and Zoe!

My friend Vik is housesitting them only till this friday so I quickly went to visit them again.

Not gonna see them anytime soon :(

PS. You can never get angry with your pets coz you will just go sigh.................then hug them again :)

Stumbled upon his voice yesterday and I fell in love with it instantly.
And the lyrics~

可乐! :)

PS: if you are someone who doesn't listen to chinese songs,
please do not press the play button and ignore this post. 
If not you will think that it is just a ching chong ting tong ling long song and that will seriously insult my new idol. HAHA.

It is when you are unwell that you know who are the people who really love you :)

I always feel that you are not as important.
so when i hurt you,
I thought it was okay.
But now, i realise how much i need you..





I'm sorry left hand...





Haha :P

Ouch.

Just had 6 stitches on my hand.
During lab class,
while i was forcing the glass pipette into the pipette pump,
the glass broke and i forced the broken glass pipette into my hand and scooped out some flesh.
i know this sounds gross.
but that's exactly what happened.
was so shocked at first when i saw a piece of flesh dangling off my hand.
it only register to me what just happened after like 10 seconds.
then i cried.

drama max.
my group members were like "OMGGGGGGG. Wtffff"

Rested at the first aid room while waiting for the school nurse to come.
The unit coordinator and lab technicians all came to ask me how i was feeling.
i couldn't stop tearing so i replied in the awkward crying voice while trying to breathe.
Please, next time just leave me alone =.=

The nurse came.
I was like " can you just give a a painkiller jab first?"
She said, "oh i will, but first i need to get your particulars.."
WHAT THE...... KILL ME seriously.
Blood was like oozing out and dripping all over the place.
the lab technicians kept changing the serviettes coz they were constantly being soaked with blood.

Security came. Drove us to the school clinic.
The doctor looked at my wound and said, " I cannot fix this, it's too complicated. You have to go to a plastic surgeon at the hospital."
ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

And that was after the delay of 3 hours in school.

Don't ask me why.

I have no freaking idea what everyone was doing.

Fine. Called Theodore to take me to the hospital.
He was sleeping then coz he did his essay till 4am but still flew down to school.
Thanks buddy :)
Went to the reception and told them that i was referred by the school doctor to get my hand stitched up.
The lady said "You HAVE to go to the emergency department right now"

When i went there, i waited for like......1.5 hours.
Erm, """EMERGENCY""?

A lady had a mini heart attack but i went in before her.
So i reckon there was still a wee bit of emergency in this.
haha.

okay. then hell started.
The plastic surgeon examined my wound and said it was too deep so i had to do an x-ray to see if there were any glass pieces left in the wound.
And yeah, there were.
I had like 5 local anaesthetic jabs at different areas of my hand.
But i could still feel the pain of them digging out the glass pieces, pushing the flesh back in etc.

Of all the days and all the people,

I have to get a practicing student that day.

The plastic surgeon was taking his time to teach the practicing student while doing the stitches.
And there was a time when i could feel where they were stitching but felt pain at another area.
So I turned slightly to take a peep of what was going on.
I saw the other side of my hand with the dangling flesh being caught under the surgical cloth.
Omg.
Put me to sleep already.

Oh well. The nurse was nice at least.
She gave me a 20cm cotton pad for me to cry on.
It's that bad.
I wasn't like making the drama crying noises but tears just kept falling down.
Guys, it's an involuntary reflex okay.
And she said to me " at least when you feel pain, you know that you're alive."
True that.

At the end of the surgery,
i thought it was over but nope.
One more tetanus jab D:
The the doctor left and the nurse came in.
She saw my dressing and said, "That's the wrong dressing and why did the doctor not clean up all the blood on your hand??"
I said, "oh, i thought i was suppose to do it myself.."
She said, "No, he's suppose to clean it for you".
She is a really experienced nurse so she went out to like "scold" the doctor.
Haha.
That was pretty funny.

Now that the anaesthetic has worn off,
I can feel the real pain kicking in :(

Was typing this super long post with only my right hand,
Appreciate this people.
Wish me speedy recovery.

PS: no pictures coz that might just scare my readers away.

Charlie the Siamese Cat

He was taking a stroll at the park.

The odd one out among all the other dogs.

Constantly being barked at.

He continued walking.

Maintained his composure.

The arrogance and pridefulness in him.

Just like a lion.

But everything gave way when...

he meowed.

You don't have to pretend to be someone else :)

“永远都不要去想念你不曾拥有过的“

Have to spit out a 1200 words essay on animal ethics with referencing of at least 6 peer reviewed articles by Tuesday.

Magic, I need you right now.

 Practicality      VS      Appearance

Been asking around.

Ultra polarised viewsssss.

MAKE A CONFUSED PERSON EVEN MORE CONFUSED.

Conclusion.

Go for the pretty one!

Coz anyway both phones allow me to call, text, take pictures and have map application.

That's all I ask for from my phone.

Okay so i removed my blog song coz some of you didn't like the same song playing at the background over and over again.
After i removed it, some of you asked why i removed it.
You guys are quite hard to pleaseeeeee.
Haha.
And most importantly, my best friend Jil still wants it.
So, for everyone's benefit,
I gonna keep the music playing.....but a different one!

Hope you guys like it :)

PS: Will try to change it frequently before any of you gets sick of it again >.<

We're staying together

Another 5 years of long distance relationship is gonna be so hard.

We are both trying.

He got an iphone so that we can whatsapp and viber call more often rather than just sending overseas texts all the time.

We just had the conversation of whether we should give it a go or just end it before it gets harder.

Coz he might not be able to come back to Perth.

Not easy at all.

I have no idea what would be the best option for us.

I just know that breaking up will be the last thing that I want.

So no matter how hard it gets, it will still be better than losing him.

Tonight, I realised how much he means to me.

Let's stay together as long as we can. 

I was at the Perth Royal Show yesterday.

Yes, the atmosphere of all the rides and games that were going on seemed all fun and the place was filled with laughter and joy.

But when the fireworks started, it just reminded me of your absence.

I will see you soon, 

just 8 more weeks..

Miss you.

那一刻
他什么也没说
只是把她抱进了怀里
在她耳边轻轻地说了声 “对不起。。”
她哭了。

no more blog song!

Little gestures that can mean so much.

I smiled.

:)

From twitter:

"The first boy that made you cry is the boy that you love.

The first boy that made you laugh is the boy that loves you.

The first boy that made you bleed is your first boy."

LOL >.<

一个爱她的。
一个她爱的。
三个人的爱情，
不会快乐。

Instructions:

1. Take one  FIVE confetti party poppers in hand

2. Point them towards a direction where there is no one

3. With a sudden movement, pull the strings.

COZ I"M DONE WITH MID SEMESTER EXAMS!

I bet you know how I feel :D

Yay.

Enjoy now and worry about the results later.

And final exams too...

lol >.<

Why I Love Cats

1. Abusive use of their innocent eyes to ask for food.

2. Not body size conscious at all.

3. If you don't give it more food, 

 it just sits there and stares at the empty bowl pitifully,

 looks away to show its discontentment..

or gives you a grumpy face till.........

You give up

or...it gives up..

Haha.

Credits to rainbow bridge vet clinic cats! :D

Mid sem exams to be over asap pleaseeee.
But essay and report due right after.
Dang.

Just wondering how you guys would feel when someone says to you for example:

"Even though you are not the sharpest crayon in my crayon box, you are my favourite colour!"

Yes. Compliments with "even though".

Will you accept the compliment gladly?

Or deflect it coz of the "even though" that comes before / the "but" that follows after?

Call me lame but I would think it's cute.. :(

Next FRIDAY for me!!

Weeeee~

Can't wait to get on the crazy rides, buy some show bags and 

eat cotton candy/popcorn/corn dog/churros!! 

(not that I can't eat them during normal days but it just feels different when you eat them 

at a funfair kinda setting :P)

Best Chef Ever!

So, I had to settle my dinner today coz yy was out till like 10pm.
Was busy studying so I didn't bother to cook.
When he came back and whatsapped me what's for lunch tmr,
I sent him a picture of my "dinner"...

(notice the study notes behind people. I'm really studying....LOL)

to make it look more pathetic...

So it went like this.. (simplified version)

YY: (being sarcastic) oh yeah that looks delicious

Shu: Your own dinner that you ate outside you mean. (got pissy) Go cook now (~10.45pm), i'm coming home from lib to eat.

YY: (sends apple emoticon) give you an apple

Shu: ...

YY: Actually I feel like cooking. I will fry some yummy food!

Shu: (don't believe that he will be so nice) !!! really??

YY: Did I say I'm gonna cook for you?

Shu: (=.=)  I knew it.

And

.

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.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

 TADAAAAA~

:D

Okay got to drink tea now. Coz that's freaking SUPPER...

Sometimes I wish that you can be less mature than you are.
I still want to do what other young couples do.
Being silly in public, send cheesy texts before we go to bed or be in huge fights that can end with just a simple " I love you".
We are in different stages of our lives.
You have outgrown all of these.
I'm not at where you are now.
Can you slow down your steps?
I want to be beside you.

When you have someone else to compare him with,
you will never be happy with what you have.

So much to study...

Next time. 

Next time I will study earlier.

I promise.

Procrastination, I blame you.
If I ever break my promise, it's all your fault.

No time for other stuff (except blogging).

STUDY!!!!!

"You will never get lost shu coz I know where I left ya"

She came into the clinic in a little carrier.

She had no idea what was gonna happen.

So she just waited quietly in the cage that she was kept in.

Had some difficulties breathing.

Got taken out of the cage.

The nurse held her hand and shaved away some of the fur.

She didn't struggle at all.

Her owners were watching.

Just another regular jab maybe?

No.

When the needle went in, 

I looked away and backed out.

Coz I knew what's in the syringe..

Someone you love or someone who loves you?

捧在手心里的爱，

随时都会滑落。

一旦摔破了，

就很难再像从前一样纯真。

就让你永远住在心里吧，

那里，很安全。

(Public acknowledgement requested by obviously a thick skin person.. LOL)

It came as a surprise!

Just when i needed all the sugar, milk and cream..

That one spoonful of ice cream instantly lighted up the happy zones in my brain.

Soooooo magical.

Appreciate it budddyy!!! :D

okay done.

我不要了。

YAYYYYYYYYY!!
I'm so happy at the moment.
Just finished my BIO 152 Online quiz that had been bugging me the whole time.
And he is on the plane, on his way to perth, on his way to me!
Haha.
Yeepee :)
Study break starts in 12 hours :D

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对一个人彻底死心，

需要多少时间和意志？

对你说我决定放手时，

我知道这次真的结束了。

Received a good morning text from him today.
Just a little bit toooooo sweet :)

Don't make use of someone's love for you.
One day when you look back,
you will hate yourself for what you have done to her.
Till then, she would have found someone who know how to cherish her better than you do.

Chengy's 21st!

Did a surprise birthday party for Chengy!!

This silly boy didn't realise that something was up even though we accidentally dropped so many hints =.=

Ohh well! It's good that he didn't find out! 

The initial plan was to get FC to bring him out for a movie after school. But chengy kept insisting of dropping his bag off at home since it's on the way. So, smart FC keep wasting time (by saying he wants to eat ice cream etc >.<) till there was no time left to drop off his stupid bag. HAHAHA. 

After the movies, they parked the car in the garage and apparently chengy asked FC,"what should I do for my 21st?".

And BAMMMMM.

When he walked through the garage door....

SURPRISE! Poppers and balloons~~~~

Yeah, it was once of the best surprise ever :D

Some deco~

Of course.

With kristine's friends

Yay group pic

Uncle, auntie and birthday boy!

With dj of the night..Kent!

Cousins/niece

The organizers!

Yeepee! Great job guys :D

The chef and the maid

I haven't been cooking dinner for a long time coz i hired a chef!

Not exactly hire but i got someone to cook and I will wash.

So it's a you cook I clean kinda trade.

My friend loves to cook and I don't mind washing the dishes (coz it takes so much lesser time >.<)

PS. He is such an awesome cook! You have no idea how good he is.

I used to HATE eggplant but now, after trying the eggplant dish that he made, I fell in love with this purple thing. Craving it so much that i forced him to include eggplant in the grocery list every week.

He watches masterchef and learns the dishes they make.

Super particular about presentation and taste.

Sometimes I would go, "Omg, don't need to, too much effort!" 

And he would be like, "No! Have to! The food must be well presented."

There was once he made osso bucco. 5 hours of baking.

He then reduced the sauce. Made it all pretty and nice. Then it's dinner time.

Today's dinner made me feel like blogging about it coz when he asked me to come out for dinner, it was all nicely laid out! So nice :) 

Tadaa~

According to chef:

Pan seared chicken breast wrapped in proscuitto ham with roasted potatoes and dutch carrots.

Pushing someone away as a form of protection.
A self defence developed from past experiences.
He, who is a totally different person from the one who once hurt you, will be treated unfairly.
So, let go and start loving again.

Had our first farm practical yesterday!
Love it.
Handled the horses.
O.M.G
Awesome animals.
Cannot imagine myself doing anything else other than being a vet/animal keeper :)

Meet snowy! 

Busy day!

But i was happy :)

1.46 am.

5 hours of lecture straight tomorrow morning later.

Goodnight peeps :)

Trying my best not to let it fade
but conversations die really quickly.
we would go silent and not knowing what else to say.
coz we are not in each other's lives.

当他转身背对她时，
她的伞掉了。
雨水一滴一滴地打在她身上，
她忽然清醒, 发现紧抓着不放的爱，
只会让自己更痛。

Overthinking?

What does that even mean?
If you don't tell the person or explain yourself properly,
how can you expect that person to know what you mean by that?
Of course he/she will be thinking (since you choose not to say) what are the possible meanings tied to your words.

Don't try to mindf*ck someone just to get the attention that you want.
Not cool.

She has so much to say.

But something is stopping her.

Her pride.

It just wouldn't let her.

When a guy plays with animals or little kids,

his kindness at that moment becomes so attractive :)

"While you are ignoring, someone else is begging for his/her attention."

And anyway, I'm actually quite wrong about you.

Yet Another..

Don't look at me with those eyes.
I'm afraid I might forgive you once again.

Dilemma

Long distance relationship is really hard.

Especially when the future has so many "maybes"

Was suppose to wait for just another year more.

But now, it might be 2 years or even more.

It is just all these uncertainties that make me want to rethink about stuff.

Turn back before it's too late

or go forward before the chance slips?

I'm not as strong as you think,

I actually need you right here.

Just if I had to live in your home country and you had to live in mine.

Forever alone apart.

Declaration

It's not an emo blog.

okay just sometimes.

okay okay most of the times.

OKAY. All the time.

Just needed to type it out to feel better :(

And when I sign out, I'm a happy girl again! 

How it works

1. She said no coz she felt jealous.

2. He said please coz he really wants to.

3. She said let's break up coz she don't want to be upset anymore.

4. He said that he doesn't want to end it coz he loves her.

5. She said okay coz she still likes him.

6. He came back with a new question.

7. Repeat step 1.

Put the picture on the desk, put it away, 
put it on, put it away and put it on again.

愿意为你放弃的所有一切，
却得不到你的一点牺牲。

放开，
并没有更好过。

又不是第一次
有什么好难过的！

矛盾。

说不在意，
是种伪装。
让自己看起来很大方。
不想控制你，
但是心， 却忍不住会嫉妒着。
到最后，
没人听得见心想说的话。

该休息了～

The one who once hurt you the most,
will always be the one that never leaves your heart.

同样的地方，
但你不在了。

I felt it :D

It's just like a fantasy. Just.

It's amazing how he can make you smile so easily.
But hiding your smile to make it less obvious that you like him.
He who pretends that he doesn't care,
gave the most love that he has to offer you.

And he makes you happy,
just by being there :)

That day, it rained.

Her
The unheard cry.
When he pushes you to someone else.
It hurts.
Wanting to tell him that he is the one that you have ever wished for.
Not anyone else.
But these are words that you can never tell.

Him
Pretend.
When you have to put on a fake smile.
Letting her go to someone else.
That wasn't your true self.
But the love you have for her has never been so true.

The love that they have for each other.
They never knew and will never know.

FASTERRRR

Studying for my last exam.

Just ONE LAST ONE.

And  then i can play for the rest of the 8923478231 days.

ok not so many but that's what i see.

Some of my friends finished their exams today.

Jealous max.

MY TURN TOMORROW!!

ok.back to chemistry.bye. 

You took away everything with you, except our memories.
These memories hide in every corner of this room.
Please come back and take them away.

Going back in time...
wouldn't change anything.

Exams are coming.... D:
but the rewards come right after that!
I'm counting down almost every single second :)

Don't come by too easily, i might not cherish or appreciate.

I used to

Love you.

对她的爱， 到底有多少。。
足够让你对于其他的一切都毫不在乎吗？

不用你来回答。 
她的心， 早已感觉到答案了～

Quoted from a friend.

"You never stop loving, its either you never did or you forever will.."

HOW COOL IS THIS QUOTE!

Haha. Not cheesy at all. Just so so true.

Distance.. 

makes the heart grow fonder or.. fades the love away?

we will find out.

Guess you appeared and took my fear away.

I think I'm ready :)

Who can you actually talk to?

Why use hurtful words on her?
Does that really make you feel better just because she gets to feel how you are feeling?
If it does, i don't think you love her anymore.
Don't say you do.
Coz you don't.

Get that poker face off.

What's scarier than a liar?

Someone who spit lies right in your face just to get his damn way through.
Once you know the truth,
you will feel like a total dumbass for even believing a SINGLE word of his.

GEEZ.

500 Days of Summer

When you fear commitments is when you haven't meet the right person. Really?