A Chubby Child

Since young I have always been a chubby child.
Compared to my older sister who is always tinier and skinnier, I'm always mistaken as the older one.
Other people would joke and ask if I snatched all of my sister's food from her that's why our body size differ so much.
I recently saw a picture of myself when I was around 10.
My tummy was so huge that it actually covered half of the waist pouch that I was wearing.

Whenever I go out with my friends, I would never dare to eat much coz I was afraid of the teasing that I might get.
Munching on a snack when I'm out in public was also a no no coz I didn't want people to think that, "this girl should stop eating and start losing some weight".

In primary school and secondary school, I was in the Trim and Fit (TAF) club (if you read it backwards, it actually says "FAT").
It's basically a programme that targeted on obese children in Singapore schools and these students were educated on nutrition and made to participate in intense physical activity.
In my secondary school, we had to do exercises early in the morning before school assembly at the front porch where the parents dropped off their kids.
To me, it was quite embarrassing as it's hard to avoid judgemental stares from the parents, your schoolmates and also your teachers.
While all the other kids can start school feeling fresh and clean, I had to start mine feeling all sweaty, smelly and lethargic.

During recess time, we had to do exercises at the quadrangle while other kids get to go to the canteen to get their break time snacks.
Weight taking was also part of the routine and I have always hated to do that in front of all the other students.
If I knew that I had weight taking the next day, I would starve myself from the night before onwards.

I felt that this system was not effective for me as it only lowered my self esteem further with the teasing that I received from my peers.
I was more demoralised than encouraged.

In 2007, this programme was abolished due to the increasing number of schoolgirls developing eating disorders such as anorexia nervosa and bulimia.

Being slim has always been something that I yearn for but have not achieved so far.
I will always have random motivations when I see weight losing articles, hear stories from my friends or even just seeing a slim girl walking pass would make me really envious and jealous of them.
However, these motivations never really lasted for long.

2 years ago, I went on a full Special K diet for two weeks.
I did lose a few kilos but my body couldn't take that for long.
One night, I had severe gastric pain where I had to be sent to the hospital immediately.
I was given morphine to relieve the pain and was forced by the nurses to eat.

I know where my problem lies and I'm trying to work on it.
I want to be able to share my successful weight loss story with people to further motivate them to be healthy and fit and make them believe based on one more real life example.

I'm looking forward to that day.

LINE parcel :)

YAY it came!!!

Boyfriend said he wanted to skype and it was the parcel!
Saw him unwrapping it and he purposely revealed each item to me slowly to build up my curiosity...

That's the parcel!

Cute little Sally (the duck) note from them! 

PS: If you read my post earlier on, you will understand why

So they gave us Brown and Cony Keychains instead which is equally good!

The prize! He tried his and it fits!

Can't wait to try mine when he brings it over to Australia in June :D

But we're still debating if we should wear it out together. 

Hahaha XD

That's all folks!

Once again, thank you LINE for being so sweet and thoughtful :)

Source: Waggle Canine Aventure Gear

And all the other animals! :)

Selfish people

Selfishness (noun): devoted to or caring only for oneself; concerned primarily with one's own interest.

I'm sure many of you have encountered selfish people in your life.
Would you choose to tell your other friends how unhappy you are with that particular friend or would you go up to the person and express your thought of him/her hoping that he/she will change into a more caring person?

I think the latter is a least common option.
Coz most likely that selfish friend of yours will feel offended and be all defensive.
People are who they are.
It's hard to change them sometimes.

How a Man Should Talk with an Upset Woman

Source: http://voices.yahoo.com/how-man-talk-upset-woman-3366112.html

There is a big difference in how men and woman deal with disquieting situations. Men seldom talk to others about a situation they are dealing with. They tend to either work it out themselves or go to only one specific person whom they feel has the experience to give them advice to help them find a solution. I think this is why men don't understand why women will talk to many different people about the same thing that has upset them. They think if a woman tells them about a problem she's had that she is looking for advice from them to help her solve the problem. When women are really just trying to vent and let their feelings run the course.

Women understand this about each other. That is why they can listen on the phone for an hour while their friend goes over the situation and expresses it in different ways relating to the way it made her feel, they way she's dealt with similar situations in the past. Or the things she's dealt with before with the same person to whom she's dealing with now. Other woman know they are just "letting it all out" and not looking for a particular answer or solution.

Men often react to the anger in a woman's voice. Men see a problem and try to help find a solution. They think offering suggestions for handling the problem is helpful. What they don't understand is that the women are not looking for a solution, but are just looking to be consoled. Men need to learn to listen and show compassion, instead of trying to solve what they see as the problem.

The woman doesn't want to hear what she should have said or done or should do to "fix" what has upset her, she is looking for someone to listen to her pain and empathize with her feelings. The best response a man can offer is to listen and speak to her pain; "That sounds awful", "That doesn't sound very nice", "I can see how that hurts you". When she is through sharing her pain, a nice hug and a response of "everything will be alright, it will all work out" is what she really needs to hear.

Men should try helping by saying something like; "You deserve a rest," "let me take care of things, I'll make dinner and draw you a hot bath, you go relax while I take care of everything. Is there anything I can get for you?" Offer her a cup of hot tea or a glass of wine. I tell you, she will love you so much for your consideration that you will have a wonderful time after dinner!

When I failed my driving test for the 4th time today, I was really disappointed with myself. I called my boyfriend and started crying, pouring out all my feelings to him. Said wilful stuff like I hate driving, I don't want to go for another test anymore etc. Basically all the angry words I could think of. I know, childish.

My boyfriend didn't give me practical advices at that point of time. Neither did he force me to tell him what's the reason of failing. He just listened while i ranted. He kept assuring me that everything is fine. And even if I never ever get my license, it's okay coz he will be there to drive me around. 

These are very comforting words that I received from him and soon got better.

I am thankful for him :)